A small bird flew into a window and fell down right in front of Andrew and I as we were hanging clothes on the line. It chirped, twitched, and then was still.
I put her in a box. I checked to see if her tiny heart was still beating - maybe she was just unconscious. It wasn't.
I'm blessed to say that this was my first experience actually being present with another creature at its death. I'm a little shaken by it.
And how to explain to Andrew? "Why do things die?" he asked. Everything dies, I said, and I tried to explain the cycle of life. Things die, things are born. Leaves fall in the autumn and grow again in the spring. Our flowers fade and then we plant new ones. People and animals get old and then our bodies don't work so well anymore. And sometimes, we can get hurt so badly that we can't keep living. Her heart was beating while she flew, but then it stopped when she bonked her head so hard.
We looked at the bird as scientists: the way her wings fold up and expand, the shape of her beak for accessing seeds and insects, the curl of her claws.
We talked about respect, and saying goodbye.
We held a funeral. I dug a hole. I said a few words, about how pretty and sweet the bird had sung. I buried her. The kids put down large rocks and said "Goodbye, bird." We picked wildflowers to lay on her grave, "to remember," I said.
It was all I could do not to cry.
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Sunday, September 25, 2011
Denali
This story starts a long time ago when we found a good airfare to Anchorage. We thought, well heck, we can find *something* to do in Alaska for a long weekend, so we went ahead and booked it. Several weeks later, Travis was researching ideas for the trip, particularly visiting Denali, and read about 'Road Lottery Weekend'.
There is only one road cut into the vast wilderness of Denali National Park, 92.6 miles long. Denali employs a shuttle-bus system to limit impact -- the road is dirt, after all. So most of the time, private vehicles can only travel the first 15 miles of the road, which are paved. To travel beyond that, you are required to buy a ticket for the shuttle bus where you take your seat along with every other tourist. During the last weekend of the season, however, just before battening down the hatches for the winter, they hold what is called 'Road Lottery' where they open the road to 400 private vehicles each day, for four days. In order to be one of the lucky few, you have to obtain a permit through the lottery system.
And then Travis realized that the ONE weekend per year was precisely the weekend we were scheduled to be in Alaska! Pure luck. Now we needed to obtain a permit..... and this is where we took luck into our own hands and decided to make this happen. We knew they handed out a fixed 1600 permits. Our research showed that typically 10,000-11,000 people apply for a permit each year, such that about 1 in 7 entries gets a permit. Further, the rules state that only one entry can be made per person (a $10 non-refundable fee is due at time of entry), but the permits are fully transferrable, only requiring a note to be transferred to someone else. A quick calculation (accompanied by some nifty Matlab plots) showed that 6 entries would give us approximately a 70% chance of winning one permit. While 70% is far from a sure thing, it seemed acceptable. So we entered both of ourselves, my parents, and Travis's parents. We were going to call it good at 6, but at the last minute, Travis decided to submit an entry for Andrew and bump our chances to 75%. And then we sat back and waited until mid-July for the results to be posted.
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| Plot of odds of winning a road lottery permit vs. number of entries submitted |
On the day the results were posted, July 12, Travis quickly scanned the winners names. He almost panicked when he could not find any of us on the list. Then he spotted Andrew! Of our 7 entries, the only one to win a permit was Andrew! Crazy. Statistics works! In total, they received 11,024 for 2011, of which 80% come from Alaska. So overall, we spent $70 on permit entries, and then $25 for the permit itself, bringing the total cost to $95. Meanwhile, a few searches of Craigslist Alaska showed that these permits can go for up to $200-$300..... can you say stat arb? (And beyond the $10 entry fee, and the $25 permit fee, you also pay a $25 park entry fee, but given that we knew we'd be visiting Shenandoah, Yellowstone, and Denali over the course of a month, we purchased an annual Parks Pass instead.)
So on Thursday after a short-ish day of work, we headed to the airport to catch our plan to Seattle, and on to Anchorage. As I went up to the counter to request a stroller tag, I heard one gate agent mutter to the other, "Man, we're going to need DB's!" (DBs = Denied Boarding, aka volunteers, aka bumps). So I sent Travis up quickly to enquire, and just as quickly, it seemed, all three of us were bumped to the following day! Any day's a good day to get paid.
Since we are Denver-based, they did not provide a hotel room. But we live a heckuva long way from the airport, and as it turned out, we had planned to use an award night (through Marriott Megabonus) in Anchorage that night. It would expire at the end of September, and we would not have many other opportunities to use it. So we canceled our night at the Fairfield Inn Anchorage, and rebooked into the Spring Hill Suites Denver Airport. We left the car in the parking lot at the airport, and just took the shuttle to the hotel.
After a nice dinner at Village Inn (with free pie!), we returned to the hotel to turn in. As I was putting Andrew down, I realized that we only had 3 diapers left. (We normally use cloth, but switch to disposables on travel days, so when they are gone, they are really gone.) Since we had left the car in the Pikes Peak lot, someone needed to walk to the store... which was 2 miles away. As Travis had some work to get done, the task fell to me, and I struck out. It was quite a hike, but I made it to the store and back in just over an hour and a half.
On Friday, we made our way to Anchorage via Seattle, arriving at about 3:30pm. On final approach, we saw two massive mountains out in the distance which would turn out to be 20,000+ ft Denali and 17,000+ ft Mt. Foraker to its west. Spectacular! Our bag (with the extra diapers) was waiting for us at the baggage office, and after a stop at the grocery store to self-cater the majority of the rest of our trip, we headed north. The traffic out of Anchorage on a Friday evening was awful -- there may not be many people who live in Alaska, but the few that are there all seem to live in Anchorage! We had intermittent views of Denali and the surrounding peaks as we drove through the long dusk. The fall colors were just about at their peak, and the drive was just lovely.
We arrived at the Denali Mountain Morning Hostel just after 9pm. Our lodging for the weekend was a tiny cabin along the banks of Carlos Creek, a tributary of the Nenana River. The cabin had a full bed with a twin top bunk and just enough additional room to turn around. As the temperature was dropping into the 20's at night, the small electric heater made the room cozy. It was quite charming. The hostel had a main house, which was a larger cabin with a big full kitchen and common space. Many of the guests were there for the road lottery as well - this was the last weekend that the hostel would be open until next spring. One couple gave us their impressive wildlife viewing tally from the first day of the lottery.
| Our cabin: High Water |
| The view from our cabin |
| Cabin interior, and boys in bunks |
| Andrew with his permit |
Denali: "The High One"
| This is the sign where the road access becomes restricted. We drove right by. |
| Andrew was dressed for the brisk weather |
| Line of cars stopped to look at a bear |
| Arctic ground squirrel |
| Nursing with a view of Denali |
| Glacial riverbed |
| Polychrome Mountain |
| Wolf. He was lame in one leg. He ran across the road just feet from Travis. |
| The end of the road at Kantishna Mine. 92.6 miles |
| This big bull crossed the road right behind our car |
| Happy Andrew with Moose behind |
| At the Visitor's Center |
| After walking down the road in front of a line of cars, this grizzly ambled off into the sunset |
There was a set of three bears that began about 120 yards from the road. As they foraged, they got closer... and closer... until they crossed the road a couple cars in front of us.
| This bull moose was following this cow around making mating calls all afternoon. She was completely ignoring him. |
| Caribou |
| Dall Sheep |
The next day, we drove back into the park along the beginning of the road, hoping for some more photo ops, and visiting the front-country visitor's center.
On our way back south, we stopped at Denali Viewpoint North in Denali State Park, for some beautiful views of the peak. This meant we had views of Denali all three days that we were around.
| From "Denali Viewpoint North" in Denali State Park |
| Fall colors |
On our way back to Anchorage, we stopped to meet up with Aaron, a childhood friend of Travis's, and his fiancee Melissa, who we had moved to Alaska three months ago. (Three weeks ago, while on our trip to Ohio, Aaron's mom saw us at Grandma's funeral and told us that he was living in Alaska. She somewhat randomly, and with a laugh, added -- 'if you're ever there, look him up!' People really shouldn't say stuff like that to us.......) We went out for dinner, and then had a nap at their place before catching the 12:40am red-eye back to Seattle. It was rather surreal to have dinner in Alaska with a friend who grew up a mile down the road -- and a real treat to learn about life in Alaska from the 'locals'. Thanks, guys -- and best of luck!
Travis's Notes:
It's pretty seldom that you hear me say something like this, but Denali Road Lottery was one of the coolest things I've done. Denali National Park is really unlike any other in America. It is essentially a North American safari that, oh by the way, has the highest point on the continent in the background! Now I'm sure that Denali is cool even if you see it from the shuttle buses, but there seems to be something special about driving your own car, setting your own schedule.... it's a park that inspires freedom and adventure, and I just have trouble getting that feeling from a tour bus.
Oddly enough, Denali reminded me most of the national park that we visited in Chile -- the one that we're still not quite sure what it was! The taiga / tundra landscape just goes for miles, with a narrow ribbon of dirt road snaking off into the horizon. Nowhere in the Lower 48 has the same feeling of vastness, of untrammeled ground. It's truly amazing. Of course, in Chile we were virtually the only one's there, and here we had 399 other cars on the road, but the scenery, vastness, vegetation, and mountains were similar.
While we really don't like to refer to any trip as 'once in a lifetime', we really thought that the challenges of a.) being in Alaska, b.) being in Alaska on the precise weekend of road lottery, and c.) obtaining a permit might just render this a 'one-of' type of trip. Of course, we hadn't even exited the park yet when we were already planning our return so that Andrew can experience it (and remember it) too!
A few tips for future reference:
1. I had read that you should take a pair of binoculars for each adult. We debated just taking our own, but borrowed Terry's at the last minute, and are glad we did. Thanks!
2. 92.6 miles is a long way..... and it's just as far out as it is in! The speedlimit is 35 mph, but if you drive that fast, you'll either shake your car apart or miss the best sites. Bottom line: plan to be there all day.
3. Don't take view of Denali for granted. Denali is hidden in clouds 70% of the time in summer and 60% in the fall. (I'm not really sure how those stats are calculated -- it's sort of like what does 50% chance of rain mean?) Anyway, we got lucky and saw partial or full views on each of our three days. But the first day, we didn't realize how rare the unobstructed views were and didn't take many pictures. Bottom line: If you've got a view, take a picture.... it might be gone in 5 minutes.
4. Stay near the park for Road Lottery. The hostel was 13 miles away, which was fine. But considering that you've got 184 miles of driving in the park, alone, you don't want to drive very far to get there.
5. Take food and water -- that should be obvious. There isn't much (read: anything) out there. Better yet, stock up in Anchorage.
6. Don't ask someone who's primary camera is an I-pad to take your picture, especially if you have a DSLR camera..... they have no concept of a what a viewfinder is, and will almost surely cut-off your head or your feet -- or the bottom of the sign that says 'end of the road, 92.6 miles'.
7. 400 cars really isn't that many over the course of a 92.6 mile road. The eager beavers pick up their permits at 6AM and others (those with kiddos) start at 9AM. That disperses the crowd. We didn't really feel like we were part of a caravan, at least most of the time. And given that you are scanning literally 10's of square miles for wildlife, having the extra cars (and eyeballs!) really makes it easier. Usually about 10-20 cars would stop for most wildlife viewings, and it tends to be the same people so you build a little camaraderie along the way
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Baby's First Camping Trip
On Friday, Andrew had his two month doctor's visit. He's 62%ile for weight, 51%ile for height, and 54%ile for head circumference. He's grown two whole inches since birth! I'm so impressed. He also got his first round of vaccinations, which made his leg very sore all afternoon/evening. The poor guy - we put on his diapers really loose and let him sleep on our chests while he recovered.
Bonus Photo! Today's post-bath handsome hair:
Battle scars
Also of note around Pine Hill -- all the birdies are hatching their babies! A finch couple made a nest in the hanging flower basket that Travis and Andrew got me for Mother's Day, and a few days ago, we started to hear the cheep-cheep of little beaks. It's hard to get a good shot of them without disturbing them - the nest is tucked down in the (impressively flourishing) flowers, but here's a good attempt from Travis. You can see the little fluff balls and one little beak. There are four chicks in there.
Flower basket location
The bluebirds who nest in our little birdhouse also have chicks - we can hear them peeping. But they are too hard to see.
The main event for this weekend was that Andrew had his first camping trip! We went up to Pike National Forest just east of the Lost Creek Wilderness. All of the established campgrounds were full and very very crowded, so we ended up freedom camping at an established site up on a ridge at Stoney Pass. Andrew enjoyed all of the sights and sounds of the outdoors, and we had a nice hike up the 4wd road in the BOB stroller. He even slept really well at night!
We had made the assumption that there is a dichotomy paradox for tents similar to the way there is a dichotomy paradox for duffel bags. That is - no matter how much stuff you've got in there, you can always get one more thing in. We have an REI Half Dome 2+ tent, which is a two-man tent. We figured, well hey, Andrew's just a little bit more person, we should all be able to cuddle up in there, right? Yeah not so much. Andrew may have slept well, but mommy and daddy had a fairly rough night all contorted up to make room. So, uh, next on the list is a three man tent of some sort. To accommodate our little man.
Other than that, it was really super fantastic to be in the mountains again, and we can't wait to get back out there again... with a little more elbow room.
Nursing in the great outdoors.
The view
4... er... 3wd stroller
Super action video of off-road stroller
Happy Andrew
Summit photo!! ...as much as this ridge had a summit...
Napping with daddy after a tough hike.
Getting ready for bed.
Sleepy parents. Awake baby.
Outdoor diaper change
Bonus Photo! Today's post-bath handsome hair:
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